[ The experience of being lifted up like a child isn't demeaning at all anymore. In fact, Merrick likes it when Metaari holds him like this. It makes him feel like he can just relax, surrender, and let himself feel safe.
His arms surround Metaari's neck and he gently smiles down at him. ]
Just like this.
[ The words are murmured before he leans down to join their lips at last. He kisses like it's his last chance to, communicating what he can't put into words in each fervent press of his lips. His breaths come out like sobs, fluttering in his throat as he trembles with the force of emotions too big for his body to handle. ]
[ It's so easy to hold him, like it's the most natural thing in the world. And maybe it is. Maybe it doesn't have to be strange and difficult. Maybe it can just be as easy as breathing.
He returns the kiss with all of the gentleness and care he can manage. Metaari doesn't want to overwhelm right now, even if his heart is on his sleeve, bared for the world to see. But it's emotive, so emotive, all of the words he's been pretending he doesn't want to say finally coming out of him. It was easy to believe that he felt that way because he was desperate for it, but...
No, it's real. It's absolutely real and beautiful and he's glad, so glad, that he can show Merrick. ]
[ For once, Merrick is content to let the kiss stay gentle and slow. He melts into Metaari's arms, content and safe, so long as they stay in this warm little pocket of the world they'd found.
He should say something back, he knows, it's just-- he hates words, he always has, and those words are difficult to say in particular. They get tangled up inside his throat, tacky and clunky and they're never enough to describe how he feels, and by the time he lets them escape he'll have already expressed himself otherwise.
Still, there has to be something he can say. He thinks of it almost immediately: what else could he say to the man that has stayed by his side even through some of the ugliest times of his life?
Once he feels he can break away he lets their lips separate, but he stays close, so they're nose to nose. His hands are on either side of Metaari's face, thumbs gently caressing it-- and for the first time in years, he switches to the language he has actively resisted for most of his life. ]
Metaari laughs then--not at Merrick, no, never. The sound is bright, happy, the fullest of life that it's been in a long time. And then he's dumb, an idiot in love, and he actually spins the two of them around with a grin.
A child. An actual child in man form.
He stops the spin and leans in to steal another kiss, and another, before he rests their foreheads together. ]
Feel free to tell me to stop whenever you want. Except for the smiling--I don't think I'll be able to quit that for a while.
[ Merrick huffs after he's spun around, but the little smile hasn't left his face and lingers on his lips during each kiss. It's stupid, he thinks, how happy he feels. It won't last, he knows that, and yet-- he wants to have this, wants to live in this moment so badly, as long as he can.
He wraps his arms tight around Metaari's neck and just--hugs him, just like that, warm and content. He closes his eyes and locks this moment in his memory, this moment he thought he'd never have for as long as he lived. ]
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Date: 2016-05-18 07:33 am (UTC)His arms surround Metaari's neck and he gently smiles down at him. ]
Just like this.
[ The words are murmured before he leans down to join their lips at last. He kisses like it's his last chance to, communicating what he can't put into words in each fervent press of his lips. His breaths come out like sobs, fluttering in his throat as he trembles with the force of emotions too big for his body to handle. ]
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Date: 2016-05-23 06:22 am (UTC)He returns the kiss with all of the gentleness and care he can manage. Metaari doesn't want to overwhelm right now, even if his heart is on his sleeve, bared for the world to see. But it's emotive, so emotive, all of the words he's been pretending he doesn't want to say finally coming out of him. It was easy to believe that he felt that way because he was desperate for it, but...
No, it's real. It's absolutely real and beautiful and he's glad, so glad, that he can show Merrick. ]
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Date: 2016-05-24 04:50 am (UTC)He should say something back, he knows, it's just-- he hates words, he always has, and those words are difficult to say in particular. They get tangled up inside his throat, tacky and clunky and they're never enough to describe how he feels, and by the time he lets them escape he'll have already expressed himself otherwise.
Still, there has to be something he can say. He thinks of it almost immediately: what else could he say to the man that has stayed by his side even through some of the ugliest times of his life?
Once he feels he can break away he lets their lips separate, but he stays close, so they're nose to nose. His hands are on either side of Metaari's face, thumbs gently caressing it-- and for the first time in years, he switches to the language he has actively resisted for most of his life. ]
Ma serannas, emma lath. For everything.
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Date: 2016-05-25 04:14 am (UTC)Metaari laughs then--not at Merrick, no, never. The sound is bright, happy, the fullest of life that it's been in a long time. And then he's dumb, an idiot in love, and he actually spins the two of them around with a grin.
A child. An actual child in man form.
He stops the spin and leans in to steal another kiss, and another, before he rests their foreheads together. ]
Feel free to tell me to stop whenever you want. Except for the smiling--I don't think I'll be able to quit that for a while.
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Date: 2016-05-31 05:32 am (UTC)He wraps his arms tight around Metaari's neck and just--hugs him, just like that, warm and content. He closes his eyes and locks this moment in his memory, this moment he thought he'd never have for as long as he lived. ]
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Date: 2016-05-31 05:42 am (UTC)[ A pause, and he flushes slightly as he realizes what he's said. ]
I mean-- I don't mean that-- Not that I'd say no, but--
[ Another pause where he takes a deep breath and gathers himself so he can start over. ]
I want to wake up with you next to me in the morning. And the morning after. And the one after that. And... well, you get the idea.